Good evening, on this beautiful night, that is a MAJOR relief to me!
I really feel that I was resuscitated after receiving my call of relief.
The reason being, I was so down and depressed that joining my eternally resting family, even crossed my mind.
What is so bad, that warrants this type of action, you may be asking?
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Well, even though you may disagree, my BF ghosting me is a totally valid reason. However, before I get too far ahead of you, perhaps I better fill you in on my very dismal week.
So first, flashback to the 2nd, on Monday he and I were texting and I wasn't being as mature and respectful, as I should have been. So all in all, after I had texted some very idiotic messages.....,
Before I continue, I MUST stop and declare, 1 MAJOR lesson I learned was:
STOP AUTO TEXTING!!!!
This very fatuous action is a very asinine way to communicate. I have even read some of the ridiculous texts that I have sent this way, and even I am like, WTF??
Furthermore, I have even been asked if english is my primary language after they read some of my previous writing. So now, I have definitely learned to STOP this.
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Getting back to my story,
he was angry about my witless texts and the LAST thing he said was,
"That's not true."
I wasn't even entirely sure what he was referring to. So you could probably imagine, my week has been more than bleek, sad, dismal and even a little scary too, believing that I had lost him, the only one I have ever cared for, because of his total silence.
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After these last 5 days, I was beginning to wonder if perhaps he ghosted me. After all, since that night, I have NOT ever heard even the slightest peep from him. I had sent him an email yesterday and then even tried calling him today only to get his voicemail, thinking he was purposely ignoring me, so I left a message hoping to hear from him.
I was feeling extremely scared and hopeless because.......
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So,
NOW tonight, the 7th, finally my prayers were actually answered, very unusual!!
This is why I wanted to spread my exuberance and tell you about the extra special phone call I got....
....from?
MY BF!!!.....I was completely enraptured and relieved to finally hear his distinctive ring tone. Hearing that gave me new HOPE and a MAJOR feeling of RELIEF, since it told me it was HIM!!!!
After finally hearing from Rob today, I want to express my true sincere comfort and exhilaration, in addition to my exuberance already mentioned. His call almost gives me a feeling as if I was revived.
However, he has made it very clear that I must show him a lot of effort and practice any new found knowledge I gain from him. He also firmly stated that I need to take care of myself, including going to the ER or DR, if I need to.
So, I guess now, I am back to living "MY BEST LIFE" now that he is back in it.
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At this point, I will close by saying my usual......
Love you both,
(but now that I finally heard from him, love him more,)
CJ
Thanks, Paul.
It's nice to see someone out there cares.
I’m glad all is good now Chris. Paul.